Pictures that make me cry

I'm on the verge of tears. On the other window is the online photo album of a good friend and his girlfriend. It hasn't been a minute since I started browsing through their album when tears started welling up in my eyes. I particularly got affected by a photo showing them hugging in front of an amazing waterfall. I love waterfalls. But it wasn't the reason for my tears.

Just this morning I was browsing through the online wedding album of a girl friend I hadn't seen in a long time. And the other day I saw pictures of a "childhood sweetheart" and his wife on friendster.

I am probably a masochist for willfully viewing pictures like these over and over again, despite the negative effect on my emotions.

I like looking at their pictures because:

1. I'm genuinely happy for them and I want to share in their joy by looking at their pictures.

2. In the case of "childhood sweetheart's" pictures, well, they remind me of "what could've beens" and reinforces the lesson that one should never give up on a person too easily. I gave up on him, and some others, because I thought they would never transcend being frogs and/or stupid. I have tasted regret and it is a very bitter pill.

3. There's still that portion of my heart that believes that one day it could still happen to me. The hopeless romantic inside me isn't completely dead yet. It's been in cryonic suspension for so long, but someday I still believe that someone courageous enough would come to thaw it out.

Pictures fuel my perseverance to keep on waiting, to keep believing that Someone who holds this universe, and many other universes in His hand will, one day, instruct the cosmos to allow The One to cross my path.