2 Life Songs

For Such a Time As This
By: Crystal Lewis

I built my house here
Alongside this mountain
This rugged mountain
That stands so tall

I’ve had a good life
Above the lowlands
It’s more than I’ve asked for
But less than I’ve dreamed

I often hear a voice
Call down to me:
“If you’ll climb higher
You’ll find wondrous things to see”

But the way is steep
And a storm may come

For such a time as this
Is it much too great a risk
I’ve never flown from the edge of a cliff
Nor walked on the water
But if I turn away
How will I know what I have missed
Have I waited all of my life
For such a time as this?

I’ve been content
To not ask those questions
That stir the waters,
That move the waves

The windless waters
Are so much more peaceful
They calm my spirit
In silent song

I’ve often wondered what’s eluding me
The yearning meant to free me
From complacency

But the way is steep
And a storm may come

For such a time as this
Is it much too great a risk
I’ve never flown from the edge of a cliff
Nor walked on the water
But if I turn away
How will I know what I have missed
Have I waited all of my life
For such a time as this?

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Last weekend, a surprising, overwhelming thing happened. While sipping a tall glass of chocolate smoothie last Saturday, somebody threw something on my lap: a generous, inspiring and amiable lady decided to hand me my dream project. Just like that.

It was a clear sign from God that I’m about to experience the greatest ride of my life. I know that this is just the start of even greater things. I’ve been prepared for this, that much I know. But, man, I’m so scared because I know that with great things come great responsibilities. I do not know if I can put in the amount of self-sacrifice this whole thing would entail--knowing my capacity to do foolish things, and my tendency to pursue my own selfish agenda ahead of everything else.

May God save me from myself.

The only thing that’s giving me confidence right now is the fact that God has more than once proven to me this year that He is with me wherever I go, even in the darkest streets that I’m not supposed to thread. He has always saved me from my own foolishness, giving me the assurance that I am special.

One thing I know for certain: I’ve waited all my life for such a time as this.

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This is a song I learned when I was in Grade 4. It is my all-time favorite song.

All My Life

All my life
I’ve been hoping to be
Strong as the wind
As it blows from the sea
Gentle as the sunset
Quiet as the evening shadows
Soft as the green of spring
Young full of hope

And now I must live to be
All that I’ve hoped to be
From this moment
I must go
I must see this dream
Come true

We must search
We must hope
We must seek the Lord
He will help us see
Beyond all sorrows
And all fears

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I’ve just spent the whole morning crying while lying on my bedroom’s ceramic floor. I am so excited and yet I am so scared too. The emotions are so powerful my heart is bursting. But then, this is what I’ve always wanted.

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Trivia
For coffee lovers

Did you know that the quality of coffee starts to deteriorate right after roasting, but, on the other hand, you could store green coffee beans for about five years and it would be just as good as it was on the day it was harvested?

Freshly roasted coffee beans are oily, and their aroma is so strong you would be able to smell it through the packaging.

When buying coffee always remember that price is never a guarantee of quality.

*I got all these stuff, and more, from an enlightening conversation with a coffee expert.

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Movies

If you’re planning to watch Alexander better think twice. I saw it last night and if I would be made to write a review of the film my headline would be: “Alexander, The Not So Great Movie”

But do find time to watch Bridget Jones Diary: Edge of Reason. It is very entertaining, though not as good as the first one.

If you ask me who I’d choose between Mark and Daniel, I’d still choose Daniel anytime. The Daniels of this world may not have the courage, or power, or the brains to call on the gods to rescue me from a Thai prison cell, but who cares? It’s not likely that I’ll find myself locked up in some prison cell anyway, right?

I’m just looking for some adventure anyway, and am not about to get serious anytime soon, unless I get hit by a lightning bolt--which is improbable. So, right now, it’s still gorgeous over serious for me. And, believe me, it’s so much easier to get over cads. Yup, even the really good-looking ones.

So sue me for being a shallow girl. ;o)