And they're all getting married....

A few nights ago I had dinner with Nette and L. at Cena. We were with L's big and amiable American boyfriend who is here for a 2-week visit. We teased L endlessly about how she was so glowing and so nagdadalaga at her age --she's older than I am. ;o) They were holding hands and hugging each other like puppy-eyed lovers all throughout the evening. We were so aliw. And to think L doesn't even know if the relationship's for real or just for fun. hehehe. But she's toying with the idea that they'll end up married. Wish ko lang!

Enjoy mo lang yan Ning. ;o)

While watching them I couldn't help but realize that I couldn't even remember the last time I held hands or shown some very public display of attention with someone I really cared about. Gosh, have I really become so jaded? So stiff & cold, like someone said about me recently? I think I'm in big trouble. HELP!

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My closest girlfriends and I rant endlessly about how difficult it is to find decent and sensible men these days. Because some women have become too easy a lot of men now have the arrogance to just take what they want without really giving anything in return. They don't even bother to work for loving & committed relationships because they know they can just pretend they are in love and are loved back without having to take care of the responsibilities a real relationship would entail. And it's not just about sex. It seems everything now's just a farce. And it's so sad.

It has come to a point where women agree to be in these pseudo-relationships all for the sake of at least getting some affection. We're forced to settle for token gestures of affection instead of a sincere, loving relationship because that's all guys are willing to offer. We argue that it's better than being alone. But is it, really? I know someone who has accepted this reality and embraced it willingly but at what cost? It's evident that it's becoming harder for her to genuinely place her trust on someone else. And she's becoming even more jaded everyday.

It has come to a point where we blindly get into relationships that we know won't really last and try to act like it's for the long haul. We go through the motions of loving and being loved back, we say all the right words and cherish all the kilig moments but in our hearts we know everything's just for show.

Sometimes I'm tempted to give in and be in such a relationship but I'm scared that it'll leave me even lonelier than I am now.

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A friend who got engaged a week ago sent me this through email:

"Don't you worry, God is preparing someone great and special... and you have to prepare yourself din, learn to cook, to stay at home, to be quiet and submissive when necessary, and to learn to really give of yourself (until it no longer hurts)"

Kutob nyo next century pwede na akong mag-asawa? ;o) Tough luck, Ligaya.!!!!!!!! I know how to cook na, by the way. And I'm a good cook. Btw, what's the meaning of submissive? English ba yan? hahahahahaha.